I finally have new WORDart to share. I know it has been a while. So much has happened since my last post. My computer is still not working. I took it in for a professional to look at it and they told me it needs a new hard drive…not the answer I was looking for. My sweet, wonderful hubby is letting me use his computer since he is home recovering from his surgery. Thank you all so much for your prayers, the surgery went well and his recovery is going very well.
These past several weeks have probably been some of the most difficult weeks I have ever experienced, but yet I can see the hand of God in it and feel His grace. I have had a LOT of Jonah days these past few weeks. I am not proud of it, but it’s true. (Confession is good for the soul, right?) It just seems like life has been relentless. It is very scary to hear that if your husband does not have surgery asap that there is a possibility he could be paralyzed. It is also very frustrating to have that same doctor postpone his surgery for a week. I was very upset and scared, I’ll be honest. The Bible says that we are to give Him thanks in everything and that is what I tried my best to do. It turned out to be such a blessing that the surgery was delayed. God always knows what is best for us! Our dog got very sick and died the day his original surgery was supposed to happen. I was so glad my children did not have to deal with that on their own while I was with my husband at the hospital, and I know I could not have managed without him there. I never knew that losing a pet could be so hard! Seeing my children grieve and feeling totally helpless to console them has got to be the hardest thing I have ever experienced as a mother. It broke my heart. You just want to be able to suck all that pain into yourself even as you, yourself, are hurting…to protect them from their pain.
There are times in your life when you know all your strength is gone and you can ONLY lean on the strength God gives you. I was reading my Bible on one of my Jonah days, saying “Lord, I need something here from you to get me through this day” when this scripture I am using for WORDart just popped off the page at me. Don’t you just love it when that happens?!?! It’s like God is right there beside you, speaking to you and letting you know how much He cares. That He is aware of your situation, your feelings, and He will supply all your needs. This scripture is exactly what I needed to get through that day…and many since then. How wonderful to know, that He knows where I am and what I need at the immediate time. I am so thankful for His strength and His peace! The strength and peace that only He can give. I know that is what has kept me going. God is so good and I am so thankful for His Word!
Thank you so much for stopping by my blog. May God richly bless you and give you His strength and peace.